This is what I meant by "bittersweet."

"Matt, are you drunk?" he asked me. The "he."

"Not yet, should I be?"

"Go for it."

"You just want to get me drunk so you can have your way with me, huh?"

"Maybe I do, maybe I don't."

Later, we were sitting in the circle playing spin the bottle. Hannah spun the bottle and it landed on him. He was the only one in the group who was in a committed relationship, so he'd previously decided that he was not going to play. Since he's gay, though, he said, "Whatever," and he and Hannah kissed.

He then spun and it landed on me. What a crazy random happenstance!

"It's his call," someone said. I told him I'd understand and not be offended. He chose not to kiss me.

Then he and Chastity began texting each other from across the room.

"You're sending Chastity secrets via text message, aren't you?" I asked him.

"Maybe I am, maybe I'm not."

"So now I know that when you answer like that, it means 'yes,' right?"

"You're good."

They both (he and Chastity) then had to pee at the same time. Chastity speaks very loudly when she's drunk. Not even trying to hear what they were saying (not even wanting to, even) I heard, "And I didn't know what to tell Matt other than, 'You're cute, you're single but he's happy with his boyfriend.'" He then said, "Yeah, I am." Wahmp wah.

"I heard y'all talking about me in the bathroom," I told him later. "I wasn't trying to, really, Chastity's just... loud, I guess."

"Oh damn. Did you hear what I said?"

"I heard you say you were happy with your boyfriend. I'm okay with that, I can get over that, and I just wanted to let you know that I'm totally cool with you not liking me." He pulled out his phone and began texting someone. I thought that was rude. I was sitting there pouring my heart out to him and he initiates a conversation with someone else. "I know you and your boyfriend are happy together, and I'd never want to come between you, but I also think it's fair for you to know how I feel."

I then got a text message. It was from him. "i totally like you. i told chastity i wish i was single."

Complications!!!